I'm sure you have heard by now, but we had an ectopic pregnancy. My fallopian tube was 5x normal size which is why I was in so much intense pain. It was actually the same size as my uterus, if that means anything to you. They got me into surgery as soon as they could to remove the blood and tissue. Thankfully, the hormone level had already dropped significantly, which means they baby was not living, they just had to remove the leftover that wouldn't pass on it's own. That would have been even harder emotionally on me if they had to "abort" the pregnancy.
So, I am recovering. The Lord was so near, I have NEVER felt His peace like I did that day. I told Keith later, I had to face all of my worst fears in pregnancy, but we made it to the other side and God is still so good. I felt His grace and peace like it was something tangible to hold on to. You really can't imagine the grace that comes when you need it. I am so thankful for all of our friends and family who have shown so much love and support.
The saddest part was telling Jace yesterday. We told him that the baby tried to grow in the wrong place and so it died. He cried and said, "I wanted the baby to come on my birthday." (We were due a couple days before his b-day) We all cried, but we have had good talks about how we will ask God to heal mom's body and give us another baby. He said, "I am glad I was in the sac and not the tube." We told him we were so thankful to have him. He said, "Mom, did the devil make the baby stay in the tube?" Wow! What do you say? We said, I don't know maybe or maybe God wanted us to know that He loves us and that we can still know how good He is even when we lose something we really wanted and loved.
Whatever the reason we are committed to standing on God's goodness and love for us. We will choose not to blame or question His goodness. We have hurt and grieved, yes, but oh how real the peace of God can be in this desert place.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
A Double Uterus? What?!!
So, This weekend we spent most of our Saturday at the ER because I woke up with lots of extreme pain in my right lower abdomen. We still don't exactly know why I have the pain, but we found out in an ultra sound that I have a didelphic uterus. This means I actually have 2 uteruses (or whatever the plural is of that).
What does this mean? Well, it puts me at a much higher risk for miscarriage and if the pregnancy progresses I will most likely have pre-term labor, like 33-34 wks. So, the baby is in the right side and we will find out at our appt tomorrow whether or not the pregnancy is progressing. And hopefully find out what the pain is and resolve that somehow.
We are trusting God with however long He wants this little life to live. It is a rough journey, but so good to be in yet another place of knowing what God says and not what I feel as reality. HE IS GOOD!
We will keep you updated- and we appreciate your prayers!
What does this mean? Well, it puts me at a much higher risk for miscarriage and if the pregnancy progresses I will most likely have pre-term labor, like 33-34 wks. So, the baby is in the right side and we will find out at our appt tomorrow whether or not the pregnancy is progressing. And hopefully find out what the pain is and resolve that somehow.
We are trusting God with however long He wants this little life to live. It is a rough journey, but so good to be in yet another place of knowing what God says and not what I feel as reality. HE IS GOOD!
We will keep you updated- and we appreciate your prayers!
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Guess What???
WE ARE GOING TO HAVE A BABY!!!
Cute Story:
A couple of weeks ago, Jace and I were laying in his bed, waiting on Daddy to come to pray for the night. Jace was looking at all the pictues on his wall above his bed and saying Hi to everyone in the pictures, "Hi Gram, Hi Gramps", etc. Then, he put his hand on my belly and said, "Hi, sister!" I was a little shocked. We have talked about wanting a baby, so he is used to us talking about it. But we didn't think we were already. Anyway, yesterday, we found out it is true. He is a little prophet. We'll see about the "sister" part?!
Cute Story:
A couple of weeks ago, Jace and I were laying in his bed, waiting on Daddy to come to pray for the night. Jace was looking at all the pictues on his wall above his bed and saying Hi to everyone in the pictures, "Hi Gram, Hi Gramps", etc. Then, he put his hand on my belly and said, "Hi, sister!" I was a little shocked. We have talked about wanting a baby, so he is used to us talking about it. But we didn't think we were already. Anyway, yesterday, we found out it is true. He is a little prophet. We'll see about the "sister" part?!
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Tying Shoes!
So, I have been kind of avoiding teaching Jace to learn to tie his shoes. I can be so impatient with little things that take lots of practice to learn. But, my smart, independent son keeps wanting to learn so badly. So, today, as we watched Maddi and Megan play soccer, Jace and I practiced shoe tying. And... HE DID IT! He can now tie his own shoes! It's a benchmark moment! I am so proud of you, my Jacer!
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